relevance

This has always been the place where I release my guilt, but it never really leaves. I am prone to using rhetoric of the self, as if I can leave it here, or that leaving it here does not mean that it stays here. I often come to gather older guilt in exchange for something new. Now I have come to see, or it has come to me, that I have not the power to take guilt or leave it. Maybe one has to take it from me? Maybe I have to be willing to give it? but, to Whom?

I think it is a relevant thing to ask. I think its also relevant to expect an answer.

InshAllah