& Serenade

Will you come and what will I say
Oh I have been so distant and unhappy
Like I could disappear

When I was a boy I saw things
That no one else could see
So why am I so blind at twenty-two
To the hope that is all around me
Filling up this room

On the road on my own
Waiting for the words to fall from your tongue
Into my ears

When I was a boy I could hear
Symphonies in seashells
So why am I so deaf at twenty-two
To the sound of the driving snow
That drives me home to you

-Mineral

This sums up how I feel most of the time. I feel a sense of loss. I feel anxious, like I will never stop being stressed or worried about school. I feel like school is the most important thing right now, and in actuality it is the farthest thing from it.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO LIVE LIFE?

It looks as if everything I thought being out of high school would be like is far from the truth.

I am desperate for renewal; I am desperate for peace.

please do not forsake me.